Brandon's official 1st day

Today was Brandon's first day going to preschool without his mom. I've been quizzing him the last couple days about going by himself in the hopes that he was still positive and excited to go and that he really understood that I wouldn't be there with him. Everything sounded ok. Jason and I have been talking it up big time about all the cool things he'll get to do and new friends he'll make.

When I went to drop him off he was pretty hesitant but as he walked up the stairs I just said goodbye, walked out and shut the door really quickly. I thought prolonging it would just be worse. I promised him I would be right there to pick him up when they were done for the day. At 2:30 I made sure I was one of the first cars there so that he could see me pick him up and as I watched all the kids come streaming out of the house I quickly found Brandon. He was the only one with huge tears in his eyes. He was so sad and my heart just dropped. I knew he was trying to be big and not cry but I could tell it had been really hard on him. He has the sweetest nicest teachers ever but I think this was a big step for him going to school and being in a really unfamiliar environment just was a lot for him to take in. Brandon isn't big on change and he's just a sweet sensitive dependent kid. Sometimes I love that but at our parent meeting his teacher talked to us about how our main job as a parent is to teach our children how to become independant. So hard, but so true!

The teacher came up to my door and asked if Brandon is not away from us very often for long periods of time.....uhhh no he's not, hardly ever! She said he was so brave but that he was pretty sad most of the time. He kept asking for his mom and she said it was just a really long day for him.

So then I was fighting back the tears because I had really high hopes that he would just race up those steps and love preschool from day 1. Tonight he told me that he would go back to school tomorrow but not for 2 hours, only 2 minutes. Jason says it'll get better and we'll just keep on encouraging him. I'm praying I won't have to see those big crocodile tears again because I sure love his smile!